FunTime

Today was the very first time I sat a bus to go to Queensbay mall, with no one accompanies, I succeeded.

LOL Hahahaha I was so scared, I don't even know the roads, the place and how I should stop. My brother went there earlier since he woke up early, and I decided to go to see them so I went there at 4pm. LOL Kinda late and it's raining. I waited the bus about half an hour, finally got on board of bus, the bus was too peaceful until one auntie besides me fall asleep, and then i don't recognize any roads or place after Paya Terubong. Many trees, mountains and zig zag road. That moment I thought I got on the wrong bus. Then I text my brother, Nigel for SOS. Luckily they helped (; hahahaha Laugh die me. Thank you very much.

After about an hour, I finally reached, hahahaha So I went to walked and ate my dinner with my brother and Justin. Nigel was too lazy to come, next time yo! (:

Actually I'm just want to share about today feeling, anxious, excited, fun and tired. 

Nothing much to update actually, going to church for decoration tomorrow! Christmas Christmas! So happy about this season LOLLLL ♥

Anyone who see this, I want presents! 

Listen, to the song here in my heart, a melody I start but can't complete. Listen, to the sound from deep within, it's only beginning to find release. Listen- Beyonce.  

Listen your own heart, follow your dreams, make it come true. (; 

Michelle.

December

Tired tired tired. It's midnight 3.35am, and I'm still awake to update my blogggg. Just started our church decoration and I had no idea what to do next. Completely blank mind. Hope we can complete on time. C:
nothing to updates actually. :/


Actually, I saw something on someone something, and it's kinda sucks. My feeling after I saw it, mentally and emotionally ALL DOWN. I couldn't explain how my feeling was, but really, it hurts so muchhhh. I shouldn't see it! Stupid. )': Emo whole night, and then, another problem come, I just reply him late, and he is like angry or I don't know. "okay fine, nights." I don't know what to reply. LOL I don't know how to settle larh. I really scare guys with temper. Don't know larh. (: Sometimes, acting happy does feel tired, and depressed. Woman's logic, emo for nothing.
*ps: I emo because I saw something!*


End. I AM FINE.

Michelle.

Holiday

Camp ended, I have nothing to do right now. I can't imagine myself sitting in front my lappie until reopen school LOL No plans, no vacations, no activities, no work, no school, what am I doing during this long term holiday? I have no idea, boring man. Stay at home like the good girls nerdooo do. LOLL hahahaha Can anyone just jioooo me to anywhere or do anything stupidd? I would love to do such things with you guys(;

You text-ed me again. Go and find some girls and enjoy your flirty life,  I was trying to get a new life. I'm still in trauma you know? Feel so blank, like everything is wrong right now. Falalala, I'm sorry, I should be 光明之子 and light up your darkest side. Hahaha LOL

Good news! Christmas is around the corner! One more month! My favorite festival! YEY! Presents, cookies, Christmas songs, friends, foods, caroling, candies everything good always happen during Christmas! Santa Claus is coming to town. (; 

And, happy holiday guys. (;

Yeah.

Michelle.

Joy Kid's Camp

Give me an F! I! R! E! FIRE FIRE FIRE FIRE~ LOL for those who went to joys camp sure knew this. Hahaha It's my group slogan, funny.
So a week before joy's camp was camp preparation, we had to decorated or drew something nice on our board. Time given, 4 days. Mission impossible hahaha
On the first day I was so late to church for my mission impossible, everyone already at there and started their decoration. So as soon I reached there, I started my drawing. In 2 hours, I drew 5 man and I was so satisfied. LOL after some resting( fooling around with Justin and Nigel) I decided to start painting. So I painted and painted and painted then my dear Cindy appeared! She helped me to drew the paralyzed man that is really hard for me to drew it. Then I still remembered, have to go to hospital for my ribs pain, so painful. Thank God, nothings wrong now.
Blah Blah Blah Blah

On the last day for mission impossible, I was the last person(?) who completed my board. Felt so relief, phewww. By the way, these are the board the leaders make.

can you guess which is mine? (; btw, there is Felicia's board too (;

Nicole Ahgirl's board (;

Huiyu and YiHong's board, I like this (;

There are Janice, Amos and ChunLiang board too (;

Nice right? Mission accomplished! Hahaha
So it's 4 days 3 nights camp. My group, Mars. This year my group's children are so adorable and very behave. So excited! These are the activities we played, we learned. (;

Five cuteeee girls (;

Three little angels are in my group. Opps, Amos haha

Aerobic time!

Shake shake shake!

Lao shi ye yi qi lai!

on the last night we have some conversation then the teachers call us to go up and sleep. I was like 'it's the last night already. ):' No choice, we all went up and sleep. Then that night, there was something happened that only some of us know LOL hahahaha too funny. I'm sorry I couldn't share at here. Maybe next time (;

Ohhhh, sexyyyy ladies, heeee

And the last day of camp, we went to University Science Malaysia. Awesome man!

This is the most fun part!

So biggggg bubble!

heee, cutee? LOLLL

there is one part of it, we have to go in a room, then the professor switch off the light and then magic! The room full of starssss. I like it so much! after 12.30pm, we all queue up quietly and back to church.
Blah blah blahh
So the end, my board get second prize! yeah, thanks to everyone who helped me. I couldn't done anything without you guys. And my group get consolation prize. [Why?! Why?!] hahaha

Da he zhao, smile (;

so my journey of being a leader ends here, Cindy lao shi says, it's not the end yet. Yeah! little children, annyeong! For all the youth, make sure I will see your face during D-camp!

Name tagg, got star one (;

Michelle.

Last farewell.

Time flies so fast, Form 4 life finally comes to an end. *Yay* It feels kinda suck, because I'm not the same class with my friends in Form 5. Jehh, weird. What should I do? :( LOL

Holidays coming! Happy holiday fellow. I'll so busy for this coming church camp, Joy Kid's camp. There's board competition which we have to decorate or draw the notice board. Still have no idea at all. WORRYYYYYY. well, wish me good luck.

I'm worry about myself lately, there's some health problem I guess. Severe headache really gonna kill me :( and some other painssss. keep on praying and hoping for miracles :D I know God never gives up on me.

So far, everything is going well, but still no communication between me and ma bro. lol Give us more time then :( Holidaysss, GONNA BE FUN> :D
And now, please allow me to fa hiaoooooo.

NY. :*

Fangirl screamssss.

Cutee. <3

Ma boyfieee. LOL <3

Sorry fellow, just enjoy the pictures like I do. Haha

Michelle.

Halloween day.

Dear fellow, happy Halloween :) I didn't go to school, again LOL. When I woke up, my mom told me that we were going to visited our dad today. It was quite a long time since I was last visited him. So I hurried ate my brunch and prepared then we went off. My feeling was like excited and strange, I don't know why. Must be missing my dad  hah. Mom bought him a banquet of chrysanthemum and some white flowers. The weather was quite bad, cloudy. Looks like it gonna rain after our visiting, so we quickly pay our visit. Mom was talking to him and we pray. Admire my mom she was so strong and wasn't even a single tear came out. She must be painful inside her heart, right? True loveee never die. Then we went to sunshine Farlim for a walk, shopping. Before the rain comes, we went back home safely. Thanks God.

Flowers!

Scary weather. :[

Breaking news, hurricane sandy. Hundreds of thousands were evacuated from New York ahead of the arrival of hurricane sandy. That was scary tho. Kentvy kor kor and Uncle's family over there, we were so worry about you guys, take care and be careful!


Michelle

Fool

Life after final exam, it's like holidayyyy. LOL Skip school every Monday and Thursday, because of Account. I hate school so much haha Time passes so fast and October almost end now, everything doesn't seem right.
Hey you, please respect others privacy, no matters what you should not do that to me. I need privacy too, I have something to tell you, if I were you I won't disturb any of your privacy. Yes I mean it. I am so disappointed on you, really disappointed. I treat you as friend, be your good listener, be there when you're sad, tried my very best to advice, courage you, support you, I ended up getting this thing, I felt betrayed, by you.
You guys, I'm totally speechless toward you guys. I tried everything, everything. I guess we're not the same channel at all :'( That feeling of being ignored was so scary tho. Hope you guys know the feeling. Nope eu don't. it's okay, never mind.
Somehow, lately I felt so lonely, I want to go out but there was nobody company. I even asked my brother to went out with me, well friends above sister, he chose friends. LOLL So I stayed at home like the nerdy does. Patheticcc. I need Hugggs. :'(

A kiss from T.O.P

Michelle

我的感想

到了今天, 我还是没有改变. 无论多少年, 别人对我的印象还是一样. 就是那个非常非常坏的女孩, 对男生hiao, 叛逆的女孩. 我在每个人的眼里藏有以不良一位少女的眼光.
sigh... 我知道我的态度很没礼貌, 很不懂规矩, 不懂事, 不听话, 问题学生. 我一直说我改变了, 变得更加好的女生, 当局者迷, 别人不是这样看待我. 一位吸毒的人,戒了他还是被人说他是吸毒者. 改变不了的事实, 说真的, 我很伤心. 我知道以前的我很恶心, 你们都觉得我很恐怖. 我明白的.

其实, 我很少有谈得来的朋友, 就算是学校的朋友我们彼此也尴尬. 我们谈天的话题根本就谈不来, 不同的话题, 彼此有时也很尴尬完全不讲话. 那么心事我要找谁谈?! 完全没有, 我很辛苦. :(
家里, 当然我和妈咪很好, 当我不会把心事告诉她, 家里也有很多家暴. 我做人姐姐也很辛苦, 完全不明白别人脑袋在想什么. 要的是什么.
我讲的都不是理由, 我真的没有风骚别的男生, 风骚别的人. 我很少犯校规了, 很少进入以前常常拜访的纪律室了. 可以说是没有. :( 谁会相信? LOL :)
我会继续尝试改变, 继续努力. 但我也很累了, 也懒惰当好人了. 我可悲的人生,也许是我自己惹来的.
我多次不能睡都是因为我做过很多噩梦, 都是我的过去在作怪, 一直都浮现在我的脑海里, 我真的真的很想忘掉, 越想忘, 越多的事情浮现在脑袋里. 哭? 都是自己犯的错, 只能怪自己没有用. 没资格哭. shit.

还有那位男的, 不是放不放下, 你对我做了很多事, 我只能原谅, 什么都不能做, 以前我真的又哭又闹, 我知道你的无情, 就这样离开我. 现在你回来, 我以为你改变了, 变了真正的男人, 我错了, 你还是那么无情. 其实我跟你半斤八两, 我以为我们改变了, 其实我们都没有变, 还是一样的败类. :) 你很幸运有我一起陪你失败. 2年了....
I want to forget the past, I want to move on, but I can't, I just can't.
Miserable...

Michelle

Brand new look.

HEYYYY! I'm back with the brand new bloggy look . LOLL yeah, not me. I'm still pretty hahaha. And I deleted every post in my bloggy, even the Philippine's trip D': STUPID ME. D':  Well October is gonna end soon, everything was not okay for me. I happy, mad, upset, disappointed, cry. I keep on complaint that life wasn't fair to me. Why? I don't understand. I can't find any places to keep me warm, sometimes I  just think that I'm rubbish.
At school; I can't really get along with my friends, we have different topics. It's hurt so much. At home; I can't communicate with my lil bro. We always ended up fighting or arguing.
I AM SAD, DO YOU KNOW? D':
I really try my best, but  it useless. Feel so miserable, like I'm gonna losing my friends. Am I that pathetic?
Everything I done was wrong. Everything. You keep on yelling, scolding at me, can't we just calm down and talk smoothly? Then I've to act like nothing's wrong and smile at mom, for not getting her worry. Yeah, it kills whenever I smile.

And you, such a player, I hate you.


I told myself a hundred thousand million times, I am strong, this time it doesn't help at all. :(
But I'm alright, always fine. :) I know there's still someone who loves me, me! :D Always love yourself.
okay, end of rubbish talk.  

Michelle. :)